These Dreams

Very well, Arnold. I will post in order to keep you from falling asleep on the job (though I imagine it to be a task far greater than any mortal man can achieve).

I shall speak today of a recurring dream I have sometimes. It isn't a specific dream, but rather a theme. I've been having them every so often ever since I entered college, and I'm curious what thoughts or emotions underlie them.

The dream always involves me being back in high school. Sometimes its my high school, and other times it's a strange distortion of what my high school was like. There are some constants, however. For one, I am always taking a select few classes that I need to graduate, almost as if I'm returning to finish high school. Secondly, I'm usually aware that I have already graduated from college (or, while I was in college, that I had already graduated from high school). It was this realization that always upset the me in my dream. I would ask myself and those around me, "What am I doing here?! I'm not supposed to be here! I don't need this anymore!" I always had the feeling of not just being held back, but of regressing. It was suffocating! And then I would wake, never having achieved any resolution.

Well, it's been some time since I had one of those dreams. I still wonder about them, and sometimes I wish I remembered more of the dreams I had during the night (not the dreams you have when you wake up and go back to sleep. Those are easy to remember. And usually really weird in my case.)

Well, there ya go. An update, plus a little insight into that thing called Will.


Twilight Out.